Wednesday, August 10, 2011

HELP! Paradox??? What I do as opposed to what I really admire and wish I was doing?

I am a pre-medical student, biology and chemistry books line the shelves in my house from floor to ceiling, but I've long taken notice that what I most admire in myself is my proclivity for writing little stories and poems and expressing myself in other creative ways such as singing, dancing, drawing, photography, acting and playing the keyboard, all of which make up my past time. Friends as well as strangers have complimented on my ability to inspire and entertain, which gives me a great sense of satisfaction. For this reason, I find myself drawn to others who are also expressive and artistic, and find those folks with similar educational backgrounds as me quite dull and insipid, especially individuals whom I perceive to be strictly head over heels over the sciences and interested in nothing else. However, given what I plan to do as a living, which is going into the medical field, I find it a constant challenge when I am trying to get to know the type of people that I admire. I've even wished that I could be one of them but somehow I always come across as alien and standoffish to them, what's worse still, I don't know what it is that I'm doing wrong. It's always just a one-sided attraction on my part, they always look at me as a science nerd, not that being one is a terribly bad thing but how do I get the people I am interested in to dig the more colorful side of me as well?

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